Goodbyes are endless... Pasha the director, our beloved, our friend and our beloved, our companion in displacement and dark nights, the uncle and younger brother, "the last of the bunch" to my beloved father. Nothing befits him but a fitting ending, an ending beloved by God and His Messenger. God willed that he be chosen as a martyr and a witness to a genocide that leaves nothing behind. The last time I saw him was on the first day of Eid after the evening prayer. I didn't just shake his hand, I hugged him. I thought it was a welcome and a warm welcome, but it was an early farewell, a final meeting. During our family gathering, he informed us that there were warnings of a real danger surrounding him, after reconnaissance planes were spotted hovering around his house and area, and that the danger was present, especially after the recent wave that targeted all directors and leaders in police stations. Apparently, my beloved uncle noticed the sadness that had taken over my features, and perhaps a stray tear in my eyes. He continued, addressing me, saying that he had recently been suffering from a health problem, and that in his moments of pain, he thought it was the moment of death due to its severity and ferocity. That moment affected him, as he described, and he continued, saying, "Death is one thing. I did not prefer to die bedridden and sick. I want to meet God as a martyr." He was right, and God was right and chose him. He received repeated calls from his loved ones to leave his work, as it posed a danger to his life and the lives of those around him. However, he was aware that what he was doing was a religious duty and a trust entrusted to him before God. So, he did not hide, but remained at work, sleeping at home, until the machine of treachery reached him the previous night. I am saddened by his departure. By God, I loved him, and I loved sitting with him, teasing him, and joking with him. I even loved him calling me “Lulu, oh blessing.” The situations that took place between us were many and beautiful. May God reunite us with him soon, where there is eternal bliss that does not fade or change. O God, have mercy on him, accept him, and honor his abode. Make him one of the people of the highest paradise without account or prior punishment, with the truthful and the martyrs. What excellent companions they are! To God we belong and to Him we shall return. There is no power or strength except with God. God is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs.

الوداعات لا تنتهي.. الباشا المدير، حبيبنا اللّزم، صديقنا وحبيبنا، رفيق النزوح والليالي الحالكات، العم والشقيق الأصغر "آخر العنقود" لوالدي الحبيب. لا يليق به سوى خاتمة تليقُ به ويَليقُ بها، خاتمةٌ يُحبها الله ورسوله، شاء الله أن يصطفيه شهيداً وشاهداً على إبادة لا تُبقي ولا تَذر. آخرُ عهدي به كان في اليوم الأول للعيد بعد صلاة العشاء، لم اكتفِ بمصافحته، احتضنته، كنت أظنه استقبالاً وحفاوة به، ولكنه كان وداعاً مبكراً، ولقاء آخير.. في سياق جلستنا العائلية أخبرنا أن هناك تحذيرات من خطرٍ حقيقي يُحيط به، بعد رصد طائرات استطلاع تحوم حول بيته ومنطقته، وأن الخطر قائم خصوصاً بعد الموجة الأخيرة التي كانت تطال كل من هو مدير وقياديّ في المراكز الشُرَطية. على ما يبدو أن عمي الحبيب لاحظ الحزن كيف سيطر على ملامحي وربما لاحظ دمعة شاردة في مُقلتيّ، فأكمل موجهاً حديثه إيايّ بأن وعكةً صحية ألمت به في الفترة الأخيرة وأن في لحظات ألمه ظنّ أنها لحظة الموت لشدتها وضراوتها. تلك اللحظة أثرت في نفسه كما وصف، فأكمل قائلاً: "الموت واحد، لم أكن أُفضل الموت طريح الفراش والمرض، أُريد لقاءَ الله شهيداً".صَدَق، فأصدقه الله واصطفاه. كانت تأتيه دعوات من محبيه مراراً وتكراراً بترك عمله كونه يُسبب له خطراً على حياته وحياة من هم حوله، لكنه كان مدركاً أن ما يقوم به هو واجبٌ ديني، وأمانة مُكلف بها أمام الله، فلم يختبئ، بل ظلّ على رأس عمله، وينام في بيته، حتى طالته آلة الغدر الليلة السابقة. وإنه ليحزنني فراقه، والله كنت أُحبه وأُحبُ مجالسته ومشاكساته ومزوحاته، حتى كنت أحب مناداته إياي ب "لولو يا بركة"، فالمواقف التي دارت بيننا كثيرة وجميلة، عسى الله أن يجمعنا به قريباً حيث النعيمُ المقيم الذي لا يزول ولا يحول. فاللهم ارحمه وتقبله وأكرم نزله، واجعله من أهل الفردوس الأعلى من غير حساب ولا سابق عذاب مع الصديقين والشهداء وحسن أولئك رفيقا. إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون، ولا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله، وحسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل.