You are the great blessing that my heart has lost. You were the best lover, the best fiancé, and the best husband. Our journey took two years to two months. I testify that they were the most beautiful days and hours of my life. But we did not complete our journey because God chose you. He chose you as a martyr. We did not do anything to make our hearts happy. Out of compassion for our people, I did not wear that white suit and I did not rejoice in my wedding ceremony that day. But I was very happy when we decided that you would compensate me by us going on Umrah after the end of the war and going on an outing. You promised me that you would dress me in that white suit, even if it took a while. But none of our dreams came true because you left and our dreams left. Here I am, carrying a beautiful fruit that will compensate me for your deprivation, which I cannot bear or tolerate. But we will only say, “To God we belong and to Him we shall return.” You were waiting for me when I gave birth and you used to tell me I would live a life full of love and happiness. When the time came for your son to arrive, you left and did not even see him even once. You are a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that cannot be repeated... Praise be to God for what He has given. Praise be to God for what He has taken. May God have mercy on you, the light of my eyes, and may He unite us in Paradise together. May God compensate me with something better in you. O God, reward me for my affliction and replace it with something better. Goodbye, Abu Sajid.

انت النعمة الكبيرة الي فقدها قلبي كنت نعم الحبيب ونعم الخطيب ونعم الزوج كانت رحلتنا تستغرق سنتين الى شهرين اشهد بأنها كانت اجمل ايام وساعات حياتي ولكن لم نكمل طريقنا لان الله اصطفاك اختارك شهيدٱ ما عملنا فرح لنفرح قلوبنا رأفة فابناء شعبنا ولم البس تلك البدلة البيضاء ولم افرح بمراسم زفافي في تلك اليوم ولكن كنت فرحة جدٱ عندما اخدنا قرار بأنك ستعوضني بطلوعنا على العمرة بعد نهاية الحرب وان نخرج في نزهة وكنت مواعدني انك ستلبسني تلك البدلة البيضاء ولو بعد حين ولكن لم يكتمل حلم من احلامنا لانك رحلت ورحلت احلامنا
وها انا احمل ثمرة جميلة ستعوضني حرمانك الذي لا اتحمله ولا اطيقه ولكن لن نقول الا انا لله وانا اليه راجعون كنت تنتظرني عندما انجب وكنت تقول لي ساعيش حياه مليئة بالحب والسعادة وعندما حان وقت قدوم ابنك رحلت وحتى لم تشاهده ولو لمرة واحدة
انت فرصة وحدة بالعمر ولا يمكن تتكرر... الحمدلله على ما اعطى والحمدلله على ما اخذ الله يرحمك ي نور عيوني ويجمعنا بالجنة سوا وربنا يعوضني خير فيك اللهم اجرني في مصيبتي واخلفني خيرٱ منها
مع السلامة ي ابو ساجد